50 000 words.

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i know at least a bunch of you out there know about nanowrimo—national novel writing month. during the month of november each year, the global initiative nanowrimo challenges people around the world to write 50 000 words in one month.

this year was my second year participating. i wasn’t thinking of doing it this year, because i thought i’d be too busy, but then i saw some blog posts about other people doing it, so i couldn’t resist!

if you’ve been following me for a while, you know i don’t really write one novel, but rather shorter prose/stream of consciousness-kind of texts. and just like last year, i’m gonna do a little bit of a summary with stats.

♥ 50 220 words (according to pages — or 50 211 according to nanowrimo’s own word counting tool).

♥ 157 pages (in font size 12 and with 1.5 spacing)

126 texts (last year: 85), of which …

♥ 119 are in swedish (last year: 51) and

are in english (last year: 34)

conclusion: SO much less writing in english this year? no idea why. and also, i feel like i loved a lot of the pieces i wrote last year. this year, i feel like everything was crap. maybe i just need some distance to it, but i felt like i had much less flow :(

but i did it!! i’m proud of myself. did any of you participate, and how did it go? <3

 

mao

jag klarade att skriva 50 000 ord för nanowrimo! hur har det gått för er?

decembers.

it’s finally december! i can’t wait for this shitty year to be over. only since i wrote that post, more items have been adding to my list, but nothing i’m really gonna talk about right now. let’s look at other decembers instead, and see if you remember any of them from here on the blog?

2015.

christmas eve.

i spent christmas eve with siri and jens and ate and chatted all day long.

new year's eve.

and flew back to scandinavia for a few weeks. celebrated my new years in oslo!

2014.

one photo every hour.

jens, axel, calle and me dressed up in shirts for a party.

christmas eve.

and then i flew to norway and celebrated christmas with lovely ina and her family. <3

2013.

good-bye party.

i spent the second half of 2013 at berghs school of communication in stockholm. jonath was my classmate and we started hanging out a lot.

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and the last days before i was moving to san francisco, i spent in norway with my oslo bestie christoffer. we cooked food almost every night and watched game shows.

2012.

christmas party.

in 2012, i was studying my last year of my bachelor degree in västerås. i was solely hanging out with my awesome gang of girls and went to a christmas party in black/golden dress and loong hair.

christmas market.

on the weekends, i took the train home to stockholm and checked out the christmas market in old town.

2011.

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this year, i was living in france, in beautiful beautiful nice.

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and i was much better at taking outfit photos than i am nowadays!

2010.

eiffel tower / la tour eiffel.

me and robin who i was together with at the time went to paris over new year’s.

café les deux moulins.

i got to crack a crème brûlée at les deux moulins just like amélie in the movie, but i wasn’t happy. everything was closed, no one was friendly, and we were breaking up.

2009.

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but the year before, we were still thriving and madly in love. here’s out one year anniversary (and were wearing each other’s names around our necks, zoo kewt)

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and i was studying at stockholm uni and commuted through odenplan every day where it’s so nice in the morning light.

let’s pray for an play december to end this crappy year, yeah? i hope you’re doing great wherever you are. love. <3

mao

decembers genom åren!

toronto day 2: vintage shopping and report from inside a brewery.

toronto / friday.

day two in toronto! woke up to this misty view and started my day by just walking.

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partly to shelter from the rain and partly to get some breakfast sweets, i stopped here at dark horse.

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and got a cappuccino and a cookie.

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and then i just strolled. in and out of stores, up towards chinatown, past the art gallery of ontario that i was thinking about visiting, but then skipped because it was soooo crowded.

toronto / friday.

and went down to kensington market instead, where it’s packed with cute little vintage stores.

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*the antithesis of my picture of north american metropolitan*

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this place though!!! a store filled with cocktail, mixology, and drink supplies. even though i’m not crafty like that, everything in there was like PORN. go here if you’re in the hood!

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and spent the rest of the afternoon bouncing from one side of the street to the other, in and out of all the cute little vintage stores on kensington ave.

toronto / friday.

when it started ticking towards lunchtime, i walked back towards entertainment district, and along the walls filled with graffiti and street art close to queen street west, which is a great shopping street.

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so i took a stroll along this cute little part of the street before it was time to eat.

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i went for this selection of 10000 new fish. scary!! also first-ever time for me to eat eel. and maybe last ehe. :/

toronto / friday.

after my super late lunch, i thought i’d check out toronto’s own brewery, steam whistle!

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i went for a tour, and it was super interesting! i learned for example that steam whistle doesn’t use preservatives, which makes the beer’s shelf life shorter (and is also why they don’t export), but also is much better for your body and makes you less hungover!

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and that the brewery was started by three guys who were fired from another brewery. they thought of naming it “three fired guys” before they decided on steam whistle; and there are three embossed characters under the “5% alcohol” at the bottom of the bottle (can you see?). it says “3FG” as a little easter egg and a nod to their first name idea, “three fired guys”. CUTE!

toronto / friday.

and!! ended my day with canada’s national dish—poutine! it was my first time (but not last heh) eating this weird dish with fries, cheese cubes, and gravy (i mean?!). so strange but good. and a great end to my toronto friday. <3

 

mao

toronto dag två! kilade runt i affärer hela första halvan av dagen, mest vintage i kensington market! efter sushilunch drog jag ner till bryggeriet steam whistle och tog en guidad tur. ändå intressant! och avslutade dagen spektakulärt med kanadas nationalrätt poutine. mömzz

about being afraid of walking alone at night, what i find hot, and my mental strength.

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what does the last text you sent say? and to whom?
“It was super cute!! First post here: http://vickys.se/ 🙂” about toronto, to my relatively new friend gbenga!

what does the last text you received say? and from whom?
“Thanks!” from my also new friend rei, who was one of the flight attendants i befriended when i flew from new york to los angeles last time.

what time do you wake up most mornings?
7 am if i’m going to the gym, 8 otherwise.

are you afraid of walking alone at night?
not as afraid as i should (???) be??

what do you do to relax at the end of a stressful day?
sit in bed with my blog (like right now).

dumbo.

do you enjoy your job?
so i’m interning at an ad agency here in new york as you might know. and i LOVE IT.

have you ever been offered drugs but declined?
yep.

have you ever met someone who has completely altered your way of thinking?
probably several of my close friends. one of the two jens-es i know has a very unique way to approach nutrition and innovation, and has taught me a lot of interesting things about those fields.

tell us something that turns you on.
guys who take initiative.

what is something you have given a lot of thought to lately?
the future. where i’m gonna end up, how it’s all gonna work out. IF it’s gonna work out (but hopefully somehow, it will).

saturday with siri.

when did you last swallow your beliefs to avoid an argument or confrontation?
probably like … today. it would’ve created trouble to say something out loud, but inside my head, i totally disagreed with the way someone was generalizing people. (but don’t worry peeps, i usually speak up—there is just a time and place not to, as well.)

do you usually initiate hugs?
if it’s people i know, yes! if i just know someone slightly, i’m always stressed out to make other people uncomfortable and wait until they initiate the hug. but i’m always happy to hug people! so take note!

are you a very affectionate person?
VERY. once i’m comfortable with someone. but before that point, i might come off as either 1) much cooler than i am, 2) awkward, 3) weird, 4) anxious? i don’t really know tbh.

what are you looking forward to?
just knowing about my next step in life.

do you have any tattoos. do you want any/more?
you know i do! i might get some more, yeah. but not yet.

one photo every hour. august.

are you mentally strong?
i literally have no idea what to answer here. in some aspects, i’d say i’m stronger than most, and in some aspects weaker than most. (lol.) so, to be more detailed, i’ve lived through lots of trauma growing up that had made me strong, but i also stress out REALLY easily in everyday life and get anxious about small things.

are you physically strong?
not extremely, but i think i’m stronger than i look, yes! i work out a lot, but i’m also a little, like, chubby, so you can’t really see my muscles, hehe.

do you think you’re a good person?
i want to be! i hope i am. that’s all i want to be.

name one thing you wish you could change about your life right now.
having a green card would be nice???

what do you usually eat for breakfast?
protein shake usually in the morning, and then coffee and a little snack (like a babybel or cashews) when i get to work. hehe.

sunday.

 

mao

den ärliga listan om vad jag tänder på, min mentala styrka och om jag är rädd att gå ensam på natten. och sånt.

first day in toronto: 13.000 shoes and pizza.

toronto / thursday.

so! let’s look at thursday in toronto. i landed early in the morning after the short flight over from new york (like 1,5 h).

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after getting a big breakfast at a little diner, i walked to drop off my bags. hello drizzly dowtown.

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my first mission was the shoe museum!

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apparently, they have about 13.000 artifacts. the first exhibition started way back several thousands of years. these particular ones are maybe not THAT old, but you know, still.

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and some more contemporary ones, like these (actual) moonboots.

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one exhibition was on men in heels, where these extravagant platforms that elton john had worn stood!

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hello from canada!

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another cool exhibition was on outerwear in the areas around the polar circle. a parka made from seal intestines or boots from fish skin, anyone?

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this last exhibition was on painful or hurtful fashion (like dresses filled with asbestus, corsets, extremely narrow shoes, and stuff like that). ouch.

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thank you, shoe museum! time to move on.

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look at this little baby! it’s so funny how different squirrels look in different areas. that there are black ones in canada, the huge fat grey new york ones, or the tiny ginger ones in sweden.

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and here i was thinking toronto would be just clean high-rises. oh how wrong i was.

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it was still gray and a little rainy in the afternoon, but it was ok cause toronto was still cute!

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with drizzle, low brick houses and graffiti, it felt more like london than north america?? totally different from what i expected!!

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i had heard a lot of good about the little area kensington market, so that’s where i went.

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the first place i was met by was the toronto popcorn company! a tiny store with like a million popcorn flavors.

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and then i browsed food and vintage clothing for a while (bought some stuff i’ll show you later) before returning to my temporary bed to chill for a bit.

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in the evening, i decided to take a walk towards financial.

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and passed by the windows at saks fifth avenue! so prettyyyyyyyy

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candy everything!

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hello city hall!

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and after a whole day of walking, i decided to reward myself with pizza. i went to this hidden place. libretto!

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and ordered this beauty! with (brace yourselves): roasted cremini mushrooms, gorgonzola, crème fraîche, asiago, pecorino, roasted garlic, brown butter, thyme, and lemon. plus a glass of cab. YUMMMMMMMM. slept so good after this. thanks for this first day, t!

 

mao

första dagen i toronto! gick på skomuseum, vandrade runt i gulliga kensington market och käkade en fantastisk pizza. så gullig stad! hade liksom förväntat mig sterila höghus bara, men det var mer litet och gulligt, men ändå lite rufft, som london typ. mys! 

eight just really really cute dogs.

hello post-thanksgiving monday. maybe this day is a slow one for you, if you have been out traveling like me, or in general (cause being tired is kind of  like what mondays are for, i guess).
so, no long serious post here today—let’s just look at some of my favorite types of dogs!! because why not. there’s never a wrong occasion for pups.

shar pei.

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shar peis are sooooo funny, cause they kind of look like sea cows? and i find that kind of funny. in general, i like “ugly-cute” dogs rather than *beautiful* dogs (like labradors) or *cute-cute* dogs (like shih tzus). love this squishy sea cow face however.

bassett.

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because EARS! and PAWS!! i sometimes can’t even believe that a dog with ears like this even EXISTS. but they do and that makes me so so happy.

french bulldog.

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ok yes, this is like the #1 trend dog the last couple of years, but i guess it deserves to be mentioned anyways. i especially like this toasted color with lighter body and darker facial features. and HUGE ears please.

greyhound.

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ok so greyhound definitely doesn’t fit in to my typical type of favorite dog (usually fat and squishy), but for some reason i really like greyhounds! they seem so humble and brittle. and cute with their little whiskers and thin shaky bodies.

corgi.

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ok, another pretty trendy dog here but HOW COULD YOU NOT LOVE A CORGI though. short little legs, long dachshund-kind of bodies, ginormous ears and always A HUGE SMILE. plus wiggly walk. i cannot even with this breed. *cries*

english bulldog.

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hehe, the fatter and duller version of the frenchie, plus hanging ears instead of pointy. i love how they walk slowly with their chubby little bods, and are generally unimpressed with the world.

chow chow.

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omg this bear dog :'(((( <3 chow chows are like small brown polar bears with CRAZY thick fur. i just met a 10 month-old in toronto and DIED. i can’t really understand how they can see through all that fur? :)))) and also, did you know their tongues are blue?? <3

shiba.

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but the greatest dog of all time is the shiba, after all. hilarious, cute, and stubborn all at once. three of the best qualities, i mean who wouldn’t want to be perceived like that? i know i would. LOVE ALL OF U SHIBAS OUT THERE <33333

what are your favorite dogs? let me know and lighten up my monday a bit.

and p.s: don’t worry, i’m not getting one (not yet hehe). i know i’m not at the point in life to be able to care for a dog, and i’m also aware of the many things that have to be taken in account when getting a dog, as well as some of the problems the different breeds have. WORRY NOT.

 

mao

åtta av de gulligaste hundraserna jag vet! på en trött måndag liksom. vad är era favvosar??
bilderna kommer från [min pinterest].

first toronto moments.

happy sunday, cyber besties!
as you know, i’m in toronto over the thanksgiving weekend. it’s so cute here! i have a ton of pictures to go through, edit, and show you—but first, let’s go through the first canada moments through my phone:

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i had a window seat on my suuuper early flight out from new york, and the sun was rising just as i woke up from my nap in the seat.

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when i landed, though, it was drizzly and foggy, although it looked very pretty against cn tower.

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contrasts downtown. nice, don’t you think? (and yes, i promise i went to toronto even though the only city name i caught literally was “new york” that i just left looOOooOol)

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the first night, i passed by city hall where this pretty color-shifting statue stands. <3

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kensington market is so cute! filled with cute shops.

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and a loooot of vintage! spent SO much time here.

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i also expected toronto to be kind of clean in a sterile and sleek way, but it’s filled with quirk and graffiti. likey like.

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i also went to steam whistle brewery and went on a tour! it was pretty interesting, and i also love their retro-style bottle! too bad they don’t export though.

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that’s the first report from the 6! more pics are coming, so brace yourselves. xx

 

mao

här kommer en första titt på toronto genom mobilen! det var duggigt när jag kom, men cn tower var så snyggt i dimman ändå. prommade runt downtown och spenderade massor av tid i gulliga kensington market som är fullt av vintage. hat gått på bryggeritour också och spanat på graffiti. så fint det är här! mer bilder kommer asap. puss och glad söndag. <3

sounds from inside a metal heart.

as you might already know, there is the creative initiative monthly makers in the swedish blogosphere. each month, anyone can contribute for the theme of that particular month. for november, the theme is metal and just like previous months (here’s september, for example), i interpreted it in a written way (i’m no DIY:er) and wrote a text.

since the original is in swedish, i will post that version first. the english text follows underneath.

i hope you enjoy it. (and more texts of mine can be found in the category texts. ♥)

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metallhjärta sjung så som bara du kan när jag slår och du ekar ihåligt det bor en koskälla i min bröstkorg och jag hostar varje slag
allt jag sa allt jag blev, som aluminium och frostade fönster, mina lungor nu som borstat stål och du—
på andra sidan en spegelblank sjö, så långt borta att jag knappt kan se dig, en ljudvåg som färdas över vidden, studsar och den vill säga mig något men allt är bara som ickeord ett oljud som filtrerat genom en ventilationstrumma av aluminium, aldrig har något så hörbart varit ett så urholkat eko som ditt,
jag anstränger mig för att hålla nere hostan, jag håller för munnen men mitt koskällshjärta bankar och vill ut, något metalliskt i otakt mitt bakom diafragman det är där synkoperna bor

men det bor en sång här inne också, det bor en melodi i mitt metallhjärta, den är tyst men den finns
kanske om jag springer längs sjön, kanske om jag varvar jordklotet kan jag spela den för dig, kanske kan du lägga örat mot min bröstkorg, lyssna på det som lever och så ska jag skriva ditt namn med ståltråd, svetsa fast det inuti, bränna fast det på koskällan som bor längst in

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metal heart sing like only you can when i hit and you echo like as if you’re hollow there is a cowbell living in my rib cage and i’m coughing every beat
everything i said everything i became, like aluminum and frosted windows, my lungs now like brushed steel and you—
on the other side of a glassy lake, so far away that i barely can see you, a sound wave transporting across the space, bouncing and it wants to tell me something but everything is just like non-sounds a noise like filtered through an aluminum vent, never has something so audible been such a hollowed echo like yours,
i make an effort to keep the cough down, i cover my mouth but my cowbell heart is beating and wants out, something metallic out of rhythm behind the diaphragm that’s where the syncopes live

but there is a song living in here as well, there is a melody living in my metal heart, it’s quiet but it exists
maybe if i run along the lake, maybe if i lap the earth can i play it for you, maybe you can put your ear against my chest, listen to what is alive and so i will write your name with steel wires, weld it inside, burn it to the cowbell that lives inside at the back

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a lil wish list.

happy turkey day, my friends. regardless of what we think about thanksgiving and its origin, let’s rejoice about having the day off (at least here in the u.s.). today, i’m flying to toronto for the long weekend! i’m excited, and i promise to update soon enough.

it’s also one month left to christmas. it’s not my favorite holiday really, and i’ll probably not really celebrate it due to lack of family ehe, but i made a little wish list regardless, for fun:

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• a new warm bomber jacket. i sold this one in the picture because it was a little bit too big :(

• a backpack. i’ve always just worn purses and have quite a few, but i’m still missing a decently sized backpack in my life (the only backpack i own is this one).

• the le teint ultra tenue fluid foundation from chanel in color 30 (beige)! i never really wear foundation, but i tried this one from a tester in a magazine and randomly, it fit PERFECTLY. what are the odds?

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• new workout clothes. i have a few workout outfits, but i’ve had them all for quite some time now. time for upgrade!

• a gel manicure! i’ve only gotten one once before, but i liked it! maybe black this time.

• a fulltime jobbbbbb so that i can finally have peace of mind and know for sure where i’ll be for the next, at least like, year. so hard to plan the future right now.

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• hehe, what do you meme which is a meme-based card game much like cards against humanity. seems hilarious.

• a real massage. i imagine that would be nice in a cold winter like the one approaching.

• some nice books! like chimamanda ngozi adichie’s americanah, that i’ve been wanting to read for a while, for example.

what is on your wish list this year?

p.s. 1. my xmas wish list from last year can be found here.
p.s. 2. all pictures in this post (except my own) are all from my pinterest.

 

mao

hej från en som är thanksgivingledig och flyger till toronto idag! ska berätta mer om det snarast såklart, men tills vidare kommer här en liten önskelista, eftersom julen är prick en månad bort nu. på min finns en fin ryggsäck, en massage, böcker och en nya träningskläder, till exempel.
vad önskar ni er i år?

museum of sex and a tiny pussy…cat.

two days ago, i gave you some tips about some great museums in the world, one of them being the museum of sex that i just had visited. so let’s take a closer look at that day!

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i was meeting up with my museum companion for the day, robert, at union square. that subway station is right now filling up with love on post-its after the election.

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here he is, friendie. it’s so good to have robert (who also moved here from san francisco) here in nyc where i don’t know that many people.

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it was windy and cold, but the empire state stood strong and proud as always.

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first, we checked out a bookstore that had a nice chandelier and fairytale-y wallpaper.

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and then we entered the museum of sex! we were greeted by ziggy stadurst.

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there were several exhibitions, all very different from each other which was fun. this first one was about hardcore sex in photography and film and its rise like 200 years ago (mostly behind locked doors of course because taboo).

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then a super interactive exhibition designed like a camping ground with sensors and tactical elements.

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the one following that was about animal sex and animal genitalia. some disturbing pictures of closeups, as you might imagine.

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when we got down in the basement, we realized that there was a bouncy castle…

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made up from a sea of boobs!!!! we went in and jumped of course : D

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museum of sex.

wall-to-wall to the bouncy castle, there was an exhibition with sex-related objects and memorabilia (like this rube goldberg-kind of bike with a moving dildo in the front, hugh hefner’s smoking jacket, a playboy magazine in braille, and lots of other stuff). very interesting : )

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the last one was dedicated to new york’s sex scene in the disco age, and the room had been adapted accordingly. they even had a bar where you could order actual cocktails.

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LOVED all the photos in this disco exhibition. do any of you watch ANTM? if so, maybe you recognize the person to the right as one of the judges? (miss j!!)

such a fun museum, with so many different aspects of sex! thumbs up.

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after that, we went out in the cold again. saw one of the million new york squirrels sitting on a bench like a human. with its little hands tucked in!!! so cute right

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we went to robert’s place in williamsburg for a bit to eat muffins and drink coffee.

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but first and foremost for me to say hi to this little bleep!! a new roommate of his : ) CUTE SQUEEKY

mao

i helgen var jag och robert på museum of sex här på manhattan. det var ett spännande museum med flera utställningar som alla hade helt olika approacher på sex. mkt intressant!! tips tips. sen gick vi till honom, fikade och klappade på hans nya roomie, vita kattungen trixie!! gullig va <3